I never want to forget!!!!

I am sorry if anybody reads this. I told myself that if I started to blog it would be for journaling purposes only. I was laying in bed wide awake last night thinking about how big my girls are getting. It made me very sad!!!! I have not written my journey of the twins and I want to because I never want to forget. Brian and I wanted another baby but not super bad. We wanted to go to Hawaii with my family in June of 2008 so we thougth maybe after that sometime. Anyways I remember looking in the mirror thinking man I am really getting chunky and so some time went by and I thought maybe I am preg.....we were on birth control. Anyways it seemed like a long shot but maybe. I went to the doctors office and took a test and the nurse said "Mrs. Brown" you are very pregnant. CRAP I thought hmmmmm..... what does that mean for Hawaii??? Well I went ot my 8 week appt. and asked if I could still go and Dr. Jacob said that as long as the preganncy was uneventful that we could still go. WHOHOOO!!!!!!!!! At the same appointment I asked him if there was a reason why I was soooo sick he thought maybe I was farther along so he scheduled an ultrasound with my aunt Robyn. Brian had school during the time of the ultrasound and I told him to just go to school not much to see at 8 weeks. Robyn started scanning me and said "Oh Jordy, look one, two." Shut up no way twins don't run our families and we definatly were not taking fertility medication. I was schoked!!!!!!!! TWINS I called my mom she was not home so then I called Dad and he was so excited. I could not get Brian finally he called me back but he didn't beleive me. I again asked what about Hawaii??? This time the answer was NO. I was so sad!!! I don't remember a lot after that except I was so sick!!!!!! I threw up all the time. It was so bad that I would throw up water. I am not sure what little Ty did for like 5 months except he still took 3 naps and we watched a lot of Toy Story. I feel so sad that thats how it was but you do what you got to do. I finally had lost enough weight that my Doctor gave me Zofran. Finally month 5 and I can recall actuall days and began keeping food down. I think I felt good for a whole month because by month 7 i could barley walk 5 steps before I would start contracting. I absolutly loved in a strange way having 2 babies in my belly. I loved that if I layed on Livis side she would squirm and kick so then I would switch and Brin would squirm and kick. It was an amazing experience. When I was 32 weeks I started having regular contractions so they admitted me to the hospital for a day and a half. That was a difficult night, it was the only night I had slept away from my Ty. I made it 2 1/2 more weeks. At week 341/2 Sunday moring I woke up went to church and cried all through testimony meeting (not a usual for me) I went home and slept for 3 hours, went to Brians parents house for dinner, came home and started contractiong hard at about 10 p.m. I took baths, the medicine I had been given for contractions, laid in bed, cried, and at 3 a.m my water broke. I was so scared and nervous. The gorls room was not finished, well it really hadnot even been started, I didn't have a bag packed. I just hope that they girls would be ok. I prayed that thier lungs would be developed, I prayed that I would live through the event, I prayed that our little family would adjust. I felt an enormous amount of peace. I was thankful for that. We woke Ty up and called Brian's Dad who met us in the parking lot of labor and delivery. He took my little boy who cried for me and Brian and my heart broke a little for him knowing that he would change when the girls came home. I was sad that my time with just me and Ty was going to be over all to soon. Brian and I kept walking into the hospital wet water broken pants and all. I got checked in called my Mom again and told her to come as soon as she could. I got my epidural and life was good. I slept a little and by 1:00 p.m.they were wheeling me into the O.R. that is where multiple births take place in case there is need for C section. It was me, Brian, Dr. Gamett, 2 nurses and a student. The NICU nurses were in the room next door. Everyone got prepped and I pushed 2 times and little Olivia Kristen was here. She was tiny and beautiful. I kissed her and she went in the other room. 5 more pushes and Brinley Alleen was welcomed into our world. She too was little and beautiful. Brian went with the girls and brought both back into my room where he told me that they were both great and going to well baby not the NICU. What a blessing. My girls were here. They were healthy 4.5 lbs and 16 inches and 5.5 lbs and 17 inches.

Ok so here I go again. Third time is a charm right??